I feel as though I’ve always thought too much. My mind races when it’s unoccupied with tasks, either significant or menial, and there are things I contemplate that may seem to be odd fixations, or plausible fears, but in an attempt to share some of myself, these are the thoughts and questions that cross my unburdened mind today…
Statements that are unprovable, yet plausible:
There are exactly 5 colors that no one can see.
Plants have frequencies of communication that we can’t hear. Every time I mow my lawn there is silent screaming. Every flower I pick gives a last gasp before dying.
I die every time I fall asleep and a new version of myself is born whenever I wake up.
Everyone else sees the world in a different manner than I do.
Everyone else doesn’t exist.
That this life is Heaven and I don’t appreciate it enough.
That this life is Hell and I don’t appreciate it enough.
That I can’t feel the full spectrum of emotions.
That I’ve missed what could have been the happiest moment of my life.
That I won’t matter after I die.
That I don’t matter before I die.
I’ve been twitching lately,
My muscles acting of their own will.
First in my temple,
Then in my fingers,
I told my doctor of the first.
“Would you like to do anything about it?”
No, no. I’ll see if it goes away.
I sat and stared at the second,
Feeling a helplessness and anxiety,
But ever confident in hope.
The third is crippling,
And my thumb still twitches in time with my heartbeat.
I am still but a moment
And hope always returns
Only to fall on glimmering rocks
Of reality and to abide a rhythmic aberration.
I hope to share more of myself this way. Hence the #1 in the title. Until then, unless my muse strikes a different chord.